writing lines

i cannot make people think what i think
i cannot make people feel what i feel
it's not fair.
how could i? no. i cant.

but i can let people know how i feel. so at least...they know...

there's so much that i could do...if only they'd work...i wouldnt know...
but would i dare try?

it's nothing in my hands now...it's all up to you...
after all...it's a two-way thing...like you said.

if only things returned to where we left them at...
but i guess for now, it's only in my hope that it'll be like that...

hope you'll be doing well...in life...in everything that you do...
i miss needing you...i miss having you need me
perhaps it sounds so ridiculous...but that's how i feel...i need you to need me...
otherwise...i seem so lost...

but i cant force things...i dont want things done against will.
i hope we can pick things up again...somehow...in some way...
i sound foolish...but i cant help it...right? haha

yup. i guess it needs more time. perhaps i need it too...more time.






you're right. i couldnt have foreseen everything...i just feared for the worst...so little faith...and i just fitted how everything happened into what i felt would happen...i guess...it's all just out of anguish...hurt...a little of my ego. i wont think of it this way anymore. because it's just not right...i understand this part at least...





everything needs time...they say. you say it too. i will. dont expect me not to wait. i will...like i always have...i dont give up easily...i hope it'll be something that you'll come to appreciate some day...perhaps not now...but some day...

so emo...haha...my thoughts. i cant help it...after all...these are all that i have been thinking about for the past few days, weeks...




like how we've decided...i shall do what i would do in a life without you...go on...but i will always look back to see whether you're there...because you were there b4...


i guess you've been very tired of all these. i have been too. it's been so hard...but i dont want to end things because we're tired...because we had enough of trying...but yea. i'll stop ba. enough is enough. haha. someday...we'll meet...we'll greet...and perhaps we'll become gd friends again. somehow. perhaps just not now...now has been...long...and full of twists and turns.




if anything...i'll always remember the good memories...memories that we have hardly captured in photos...but forever some place of my past that i'll never forget. that will be something that i will hold on to...and never let to. because you were someone significant. and you'll always stay that way...someone important to my being, my life.


you gave me direction. now i've lost the end of the rope...felt that i never clung on to it hard enough...to let it slip frm my hands...i'll find it again some day ba. the direction that i missed...that i lost.






take care ba...think of me when you're not too tired...find me some day again...when u feel like it. after all, you always depended on your feelings...






nxt few weeks, months, going to be busy for you, for me, for almost everyone that we know...we'll pull through it somehow ba...huh. we'll arive at the end point some day...and be glad that it's finally all over. heave a sigh of relief...and move on in life....

gd luck for the upcoming exams.









im sorry for the heated conversation that we had. you didnt deserve it. i dug up everything...and threw everything on you. it wasnt fair...i felt so terrible after that...but i couldnt help it...so much things...were bothering me...and...it all just came out...like how i didnt want it to come out...

all i wanted to say was that...i missed you...missed not having you anymore there...not having you around...self-centered perhaps...yea...but...i cant help it. im so lost without us. without you there anymore.