Burnt Out?
Perhaps this is what one would call a burn-out?
- I know about the importance of value-adding to a project, but I can't seem to find anywhere to add any value to anything - in a sense I've somehow lost my sense of creativity? It somehow amounts to the fact that I'm lackluster, lacking the drive to succeed in everything that I do
- I feel like just finishing up whatever project I'm currently in the midst of, not rigorously, but just for the sake of getting it over and done with. A+? I'd strangely be happy with a B+ (I'm really not someone that settles even for an A usually)
- I know the importance of preparing for a project meeting, and I'm usually the one that leads the meetings and ensure that we don't spend any inefficient time during the meeting, but I just feel like going for the meeting, having not prepared anything beforehand (well, we're just discussing a presentation flow, and the slides are already done 3-4 days ago)...but usually i would have prepared at least an A4 of a rough plan so that everyone can discuss around that plan during the meeting.
Well maybe I'm in the midst of a burnout, but I cannot afford to let it get the better of my mental state. I've obligations and commitments that I've made, and I still have a reputation to salvage...and I will stick through it all until it's all over.
I'll probably need to spend the December evaluating what went wrong this semester. I'm scoring plenty 90%+ for my tests and mini-projects, but at Week 12 of this semester, I somehow feel like I'm crumbling, with a pretty bad outlook of the weeks of project presentations and final exams looming ahead.