emotional reasoning

which comes first?
emotions first then reasoning, or reasoning first then emotions.

upon inital impact of a decision-making-situation(dms), you'd think that emotions come first straight away.

but emotions are determined by reasoning first. how can you feel or emote something if you dont know how you should feel or emote in the first place.

if you look upon a situation and you feel sad, angry or happy...that's because within that short span of space and time, you mind goes through that process of identifying how and what to feel. Without firstly the preconception of what these 3 feelings are, you wont know how or what to feel. similarly if you do not think or do some mini-reasoning within yourself first, you COULD get happy when you see some1 die, or sad when you see a 3 year-old kid gets his first scooter. in other words, inital-reasoning takes place b4 emotions are allowed to come into play.

but...is mini-reasoning counted as actual-reasoning? i mean...emotions are suppose to be 'an experience', something which is passive which we have no choice over. (how about the time when you actually felt in awe of something brilliant: like admiring the sunset in wintertime, or the beauty of the most beautiful thing of beauty?) its a passive emotion that results from the experience. where-in then does mini-reasoning come into place? should it even be called reasoning if it is based on past-experiences, anticipation or conditioned-reflex-emotion? if the reaction to a dms (decision-making situation) is conditioned from past experiences and becomes more of a reflex action than a though-process-leading-up-to-an-action, then you cannot count reasoning as coming first.

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sianz
no.1: sup with all the dash between words...that's because my vocab is so weak i cant find any other words to replace those words-with-dashes.
no.2: why are we quarelling about which comes first, reason or emotion, when the question ask which is more necessary in justifying moral decision.
no.3: let me tell you a clue: it's in stages. (*grins sneakily*)

alright glhf

DOTA

amour

was just thinking about this not too long ago.
and then now im thinking about it again.

so many questions again. i guess those reading my blog will probably have gotten quite tired about my lamentings. but i guess if it helps me think my thoughts out better i'll just write everything down.

at this age, 17...what does one expect out of a relationship? how do we draw the line between mutual friends, gd friends, and more-than-just-friends (mtjf)? and even if its mtjf...how sure are we that it is mtjf and not just being gd friends? after all, we're only a quarter of our way towards the end and we only know and experienced so much...there's still a world out there.

i guess then we only know when you're in it when you're in it. if you never liked some1 b4...then you'll have to find out yourself...you cant read it up frm a textbook or let some1 tell you...coz it varies frm person to person, differ experience from experience...if you never loved, then you'll never know what love is. i guess that's why it is so hard to define what love or like really is. because love is complicated, human-relations (even btween friends) is complicated.

and since humans too are complicated, i guess it is left to the individual to decide how complicated the love really is. or how a relationship should be.

how should relationships be? what is mtjf, what is just being a friend. sometimes 1 party think he's just being a friend by talking to that some1...but what if that some1's definition of mtjf is that person's idea of just being a friend...then they have to sort it out. things will get a little weird initially...but...i guess in the long run...things will settle themselves out. a true friend wont forsake friendship for mtjf relationship...

haha...there's also this problems that some people encounter...like how sometimes you see all the world around you getting paired off and you're one of few left...don't feel left out. i guess like they always say...these things will come in time...maybe not this year or the next...but your time will come. and then you'll know and be glad you didnt start anything at this age. and sometimes, you're not looking in the right places...or maybe...your expectations do not go places where you wouldnt look at. its not that you're being left out...its just that you are looking out for other stuff.
hehe. but anyway...we all still have gd friends...friends that you can spend time with.

and yup. starting relationships at this age: haha i've heard of success stories when puppy love manifests into something that lasts forever into marriage. but i've also heard of stories when the same happens, but develops into something called exposure-crisis. i guess if you spend too long with that person and you havnt tried others...there's always that chance that curiosity get the better of you...these sort of relationships may end up going through tough times because: simply put...the two involved in such a relationship that started since young have not had any others before. so you'd never know how is it like being with some1 else. and its also because of this that some other relationships flourish...simply because the previous relationships havnt been that successful or a flaw found in some1 before isnt there with the person he/she is with right now. so start now or later? haha its up to you. experience is always good...but people must understand that relationships are not as simple as we like to think they are. human emotions are important part of it. and if you do care so much about some1...and you know that in the end hurt and pain will come...then why bother?

and in relationship i think one of the most important thing is expectations. what do you expect of your partner? in this aspect every1 should be very honest with each other. that's because if expectations are not fulfilled or expectations seem more on one side than the other...then a relationship will not work out. expectations are like: simple things like [remember special dates, how often going out together] to like more complicated stuff like [the intensity of the relationship, how much care should one offer etc.] expectations...are as important as the trust between 2 as well. yup. haha but of course some people prefer mystery...to see how far his/her partner would go to show liking and care for him/her. why bother spelling out everything but rather leave it open and mysterious?


hmm i think im going round in circles again...like i always do. but i do hope i did make some sense. my star[taurus] yesterday said: 'You're one who always sees all the sides to the equation in any situation and problem. But you must be firm with what ever decision you make to see it follow through'. i guess this is very true of myself.


what i am:
i always appear humble, politically correct, sometimes not so confident of myself. that's because im bringing my level down to you...so that you'll feel comfortable talking to me. but that is not me. im deeper and darker than you think. i am firm, sometimes too confident of myself and proud. but this is my inner-self...on the outside i can appear easy-going and easy to manipulate. but i will tell you...i'm very aware of the things around me...so do not think im stupid for one moment. what you do unto me today i will return with a vengeance in the future. careful.

dota tournament

hmm
dota...gd or bad?
i'll decided another time
when it's too late
been taking part in GXL (Games eXtreme League) Dota Tournament 2006.

quite tough
the matchups.
first was SETH SB
then was WinterNight

both teams are ranked in malaysia and singapore
gah.

nxt match is

Foosa
Team Reprisal

this sat.
hope can quan li yi fu and win
we wish. haha

hmm well events of past/present/future rather blurry now
dad always talks about what is sustainable and what is not sustainable
like dota is not sustainable...wont earn me a good living and future
so he wants me to do something worthwhile...something sustainable
i guess its all about balanced ba...i agree dota isnt gd for the future
but then again...if i dont play now...nxt time play either too old...no kick...or no chance anymore. but yet if play now...sacrifice other stuff
so

balance

what's more its a competition.

but its hard to achieve ba
haha im just ranting and ranting on...wish at this hour...i could think of something more intellectual...and interesting....but i cant
mind's just blank

need to get into the mood to do work liaoz
holidays pass quickly...almost ending liao (i keep telling myself it is ending)

some stuff im still nt very clear about...life's rather messy and confusing
i'll sit down (or stand up) and think them out one by one
after all, life isnt meant to be easy
sometimes...i wish i had all the answers
but then so what
but i wish it were easier now
but it isnt

who am i?
what am i?
what kind of person am i?
why do i behave like this...and then like that
i always claim to understand people the most
to know their thoughts...in many cases: true
but i dont even know myself

flurry of emotions and state of confusion
sigh

owe BLT a movie review for COUNTDOWN (have you watched it? its FANTASTIC! go watch it!) but havnt the time to do it...but i had time to rant eh no? bahz...life is just so...just so...

im tired. dont think liaoz...just sleep.
if tmr nvr comes, i'll just have to live with it


always always always thinking